Well, so it turns out some people who work with my bf have seen my artistic nude pics. When he told me this, I initially was embarrassed. I don't see why I should have been...

My art is not pornographic. It is an expression of myself. It is me; finally being comfortable in my own skin. My whole life I have always been considered "chubby", but now, I don't care. I have reached a level I am happy with.

I will not remove my deviations. They express me being trapped in my own body, being held back by my own limitations. The metal cuffs represent society trying to hold me down. To not let me reach the keys and be free. The door is my end goal, but I cannot quite reach it yet. I have to learn how to remove the shackles of the corporations, to ignore the negativity of pessimists; and most importantly, to be able to live how I want to live. To be the person I want to be.

I love myself for who I am. In the words of Marilyn Munroe, "I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes. I am out of control and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst. Then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best"