Well. Things certainly have a way of changing who a person is... This year I have done so many things I said I would never do. I have hurt many people, I have lost many a friend. Here I sit... contemplating. I have left my nursing job. I had to return to the call center as my hours were cut back to 15 hours every 2 weeks. So this way, yes, I will be making less next summer, but as for now it gives my life some structure. By being able to have 40 hours a week of something planned out is awesome. I know I will probably return to dreading work in a few weeks, but as for now I am savoring the fact that this will help me get rid of some new habits I'm not proud of. This week has been a bit of a set-back because I am currently waiting for some passwords to be reset so I can return to being a code monkey. So I am still a little off balance. I think the hardest part of all this is knowing that I invested so much money into the PSW course for no reason. The company I just left actually offers the same course for approx $7000 less than I paid for mine. The only difference? It would not give me the national documentation to prove that I am a registered PSW, and can work anywhere in Canada. Although I would still be qualified to work with that company and be paid the exact same wages had I not written my nationals.

Here is some advice for you deviants who have not messed up your lives with debt. Don't go to school until you are absolutely sure it is what you want to do. I sit here before you with loans that I am now going to have to pay off with a slightly more than minimum wage job. Life is hard. Some people are dealt winning hands, and then there are people like myself who work our asses off and still do not come out any further ahead. I hope someday my creative side will shine through and someone will recognize me for the talented individual I am. Until then? I sit on my couch and try to be content with what I have.